January 28th 2011.

“I believe there is a time for meditation in cathedrals of our own.“

~Billy Joel in Summer of Highland Falls.

I sat down today in the comfort of my office chair to work on the outstanding ‘tasks’- the ones  I seem to conveniently avoid by making myself busy in other directions.

“I must focus today!”  I told myself.  No more fooling around!   And so, as I turned my computer on, I instantly logged onto Facebook, (which is my newest unconscious habit) and once again, I was pulled into the nonsense of reading and responding to my ‘friend’s’ status updates. Again.  Sucked in.  No turning back. NOT accomplishing a THING… again.  I am finding that many times, Facebook gives me instant feedback when I am looking to avoid my own inner silence. When I have ‘time’ to be quiet, nah. I’d rather go check Facebook and see what everyone else is doing, feeling, thinking or saying. Why do I need to know what I am doing , thinking, feeling or saying when someone else may be doing it BETTER?  Sometimes, I even convince myself that Facebook IS a way that I get things accomplished! Is it a waste of time?  Or is it useful and valuable? Is it sadness? or Euphoria?

Today’s perusal of Facebook not only allowed me to see the ‘guts’ of a huge pipe organ, hear news of the birth of one of my ‘friends’ sister’s best friends, niece’s baby,   (yeah. follow THAT one!) , made me think about should be on my ‘bucket list’,  but it also brought me to a post by a friend, (thank you Emily!)  that simply said,

“Billy Joel, “It’s either sadness or euphoria.”

And so,  naturally, despite all I had to DO, I logged onto itunes, to download this familiar tune and today, that  brought me to actually accomplishing something! MY FIRST  BLOG!!

I really DO love Facebook.  I have reconnected with friends from my past. I’ve gotten to know those in high school who I perceived as one ‘type’ of person, only to find out I was wrong… !  I’ve apologized for hurting someones’ cialis online order feelings on the bus, and I’ve received a message  from someone thanking me for sticking up for them, (on that same bus!) I’ve laughed at the ingenuity of status updates.  I marvel at the honesty of some, and I cringe at the bluntness of others!

I have been notified of births, engagement/ wedding announcements,  breakups, relationship status changes buy kamagra and deaths. I have been ‘asked’ to send prayers for someone who was sick, hurt, sad, or dying.   I’ve wished MANY a ‘Happy Birthday’!

I’ve expressed my viewpoint, and have been opened up to hear others.  I’ve also had strong negative reactions from some people’s posts. And then laughed about it afterwards.  I’ve deleted posts.  I’ve de-friended one person. I’m sure I’ll have a change of heart on that one.

I notice how some people are as ‘addicted’ as I am, and others, rarely ever use it.  I post my upcoming events, thoughts, and the occasional quotes.  I unwind every night, zithromax without prescription while chatting with whomever pops into my ‘screen’ to say hello!  I’ve answered questions, and received great guidance from many.  Facebook, as I see it, is a medium for communication.. much the same as I am!  It’s personal. It’s business. It’s real. It’s raw. It’s informative. It’s cathartic.  It’s separate.  It’s connected. westernunion  It’s a waste of time. It’s the best part of my day.  It’s my way to unwind. It has become one of the ‘cathedrals of my own’ and it’s BOTH “sadness AND euphoria. ” Thanks Mark Zuckerberg!

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“Summer, Highland Falls”

They say that these are not the best of times
But they’re the only time I’ve ever known
And I believe there is a time for meditation
In cathedrals of your own
Now I’ve seen that sad surrender in my lover’s eyes
And I can only stand apart and sympathize
For we are always what our situations hand us
It’s either sadness or euphoria

So we’ll argue and we’ll compromise
And realize that nothing’s ever changed
For all our mutual experience
Our separate conclusions are the same
Now we are forced to recognize our inhumanity
And reason coexist with our insanity
And our reason coexist with our insanity
It’s either sadness or euphoria

How thoughtlessly we dissipate our energies
Perhaps we don’t fulfill each other’s fantasies
And as we stand upon the ledges of our lives
With our respective similarities
It’s either sadness or euphoria

Lyrics by Billy Joel