We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves. ~François Duc de La Rochefoucauld
If you are my ‘friend’ on Facebook, you may have seen my recent posts about visiting the Agape Center for Spirituality in Culver City, Los Angeles. I posted that I (and Kerry too!) finally met and HUGGED Michael Bernard Beckwith! Every time I am out on the west coast, I make it a PRIORITY for my spirit to attend Agape. The services there rejuvenate me and connect me to the ME (my inner goals and intentions) that I wish to create for myself in this lifetime.
Even though my ‘eye’ is always on the ‘prize’ because I always DO know what I ‘want, I find myself slipping back into moments.. or weeks.. or MONTHS (Ugh!) of forgetting that what I wish to create in my life IS POSSIBLE. At times, when things are ‘rough’, or stagnant, we all forget what we are looking for.. or what we ‘want’. We get sucked back into focusing on what ISN’T , or how HARD it is to move ahead .. or how what we reallywant ISN”T possible, or we simply forget about our Higher Intentions and slip into out ‘comfort zones’. WE also get stuck in the mindset of ‘what if those who know me think differently about me because I am choosing to live and express myself as I really wanted to?” It takes COURAGE to step out of the box!! It’s hard! In fact, sometimes, it downright SUCKS! (sorry for the words…. but it does!) It’s seems easier to go blind on ourselves and to pretend we are ‘happy’.. it’s easier to stay comfortable. But it isn’t. That is precisely what is causing you distress, feelings of resentment, or sadness, or frustration, or general feelings of BLAH.
This past service at Agape, Micheal Bernard Beckwith (GOOGLE HIM if you do NOT know who he is!) spoke about comfort zones, and mediocrity, and Excellence. He re-lit my almost blown out candle (the one i’ve been burning on both ends.. the one that I talk about to all of YOU daily about how YOU can IGNITE YOURS. Yet, like all of you, I suffer silently when my own is fading.. Beckwith described living in mediocrity, and how we tend to compare ourselves to others- This comparing ourselves to each other really leads us to ‘existing’ instead of LIVING….
I ‘speak’ with the deceased, the NON-LIVING daily, and yet, THEY are more ALIVE than most of US HERE. Are you EXISTING, or LIVING? Are you sucked into the mindset that being happy isn’t really real or possible? Or that it doesn’t last? Or that your current state of bland happiness is ‘okay’. Do you hate your job? Or where/how you live? Do you want to stand up for yourself but you never do? Are you a victim to your own fears by allowing them to keep you stagnant? Are you literally AFRAID to move forward???
Personally, I am not satisfied with that kind of existence. I want to LIVE. I want to challenge and surrender to my every fear, doubt and worry. I want to know, that at the end of my life, when ever that may be, that I had the AWARENESS that I LIVED. I pushed myself PAST my own settling for mediocrity and I STRIVED for my own personal EXCELLENCE. I want to know that I didn’t let the ‘demons’ of my negative thinking get the best of me.. that I acknowledged the negative thoughts of ‘you are not good enough, or thin enough, or strong enough,etc.. but that I did not LISTEN to them. I know my negative thoughts and doubts EXIST, but I am consciously choosing to LIVE BEYOND THEM. AND, more importantly, I want to make sure everyone I come into contact with, recognizes this potential in THEMSELVES. I want to help YOU LIVE. I want to connect to the ‘dead’ part within you, WHILE YOU ARE STILL ALIVE and bring THAT BACK TO LIFE!! And guess what? Voila! My candle? It’s burning brightly! In fact, It actually ALWAYS WAS.. I simply needed a REMINDER to SEE IT.. So look out! Together, we can ignite the world and start some really wild fires!! ;-)